Who is this monster~

Who is this monster inside of me I can't seem to tell no~~
Captured and bound by past and present memories~also thoughts that just won't seem to let go~~
Hiding in shadows of others lives I wish I could live~~
Addictions, hurt and sorrow that just will not seem to give~~
They will not give they will not let go~~
Trapped inside a self of hell, this much I do know~~
Hurt as a child, no one to shelter you from them~~
Another type of monster, one that lives and breaths and hides~~
From that hurt this addiction did arise~~
You cry~~
You beg~~
You long to be free~~
Monster, you grabbed me and slowly pulled me in~~
You whispered lies to me and made me feel nothing~~
You made yourself my only friend~~
You never let me down until I needed more~~
You my old friend have now become my enemy~~
I do not like you anymore,I do not wish to hide~~
My old friend is my addiction, hidden deep inside~~
It's time for you to leave~~
I do not wish to have you around anymore~~
Over here monster~~
Come over here~~
Let me show you the door~~