Thank You Father

Days go by Father God and I feel so alone but I know you are so close. Many times I ran from you and in my despair felt as if you left me. You never left me for it was me who ran. I ran back to the world and the nothingness it had to offer me.
Father God thank you for keeping your arms open to me inspite of myself and what I have done to you and many others.
I run from darkness..I keep a steady pace now running to the light. You Father God are the light.
For a while I had hidden in the darkness concealing my shame and wicked ways from all the people around me, but you oh Lord, you seen it all. You seen as I was bent over backwards in sin, shame and hurt. You were there. Thank you!
You stood by me Father and never hid yourself from me.
In my darkness I seen light but I continued to run from it. Deeper and deeper I plunged into the life myself and satan had created. For a while I felt sorry for myself..For a while I gave up hope..I never lost it Lord I gave it up. Now once again I possess that hope.
I now know I have a place to stand, for I know you stand right beside me. I stand with my head held high.
I ask you Father, if I begin to fall catch me.
Comfort me when I hurt.
Heal me in any sickness.
Deliver me Father from things that claim to have a hold on me.
Fill me with your compassion, your love, strenght, joy.
Sustain this life you have given me.
Make me a person after your own heart Father.
Help me to look at others and see them as you do. Someone created in your image who you love dearly.
Remind me how you cried for Lazarus everytime sorrow comes.
Remind me how you washed the feet of others when I become full of pride.
Remind me Lord of you...Remind me of you on the cross everytime I feel life is not worth living
or I feel as if no longer want to breath another breath.
Teach me Father God how precious life is to you.
Paint a picture in my spirit and in my mind of all you have done for me and continue to do.

Father, what I mean to say is forgive me for all I have done to you and others and teach me your ways and yours alone.
Father I'm coming home.
Thank you for leaving a light on.